GOD MOTHERFUCKING DAMN IT ALL TO HELL!!!

in an attempt to delete a gmail account that i never use, i deleted my entire blog, FEMME FERAL. SO now i'm back to square one using a really old blog as the previous posts show. i will try to put back up as many of the past posts as i can remember.....but it seems really contrived to rewrite them since most of them were spontaneous and unplanned. i can't believe i did this today. what a bummer.